Techempage (techempage) wrote,

[LJ Idol]

I think the biggest thing I've learned via LJ is confidence.

There are always exceptions to the rule, but online, I've always been a much more confident person that I am in real life. I guess it's just safer sitting here behind the screen.

After my ex-wife and I broke up. My confidence was at rock bottom. I had it online, I flirted, I joked, I said what I thought. But talking to a stranger, realside, wasn't going to happen.

And, of course, I complained quite a bit of my lack of interaction realside.

And the note got hit, over and over and over from my friends.

Confidence. Confidence is sexy. Confidence will get you a lot of places. Confidence! Confidence! Confidence!

But a big part of me was scared of coming off as arrogant.

And my world had imploded, I didn't see it in me to be confident.

There was one place, offline, that I exuded confidence. When I waited tables, I had it. I knew what I was going to do, what I was going to say, and I could sell with the best of them. But take me out of that limited environment and it was gone.

But, as I heald from the wounds of my relationship, as I leaned on my friends online. (And a couple really close ones, realside.) For the first since before high school, I walked out into the real world with confidence. It wasn't easy. And I have nights where I've slipped back into I hope no one notices me. But more and more, I have become confident in my daily interactions.
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